Today I was talking through inbox to my best friend. We we're talking about
if we were going to this birthday tomorrow and she said she didn't want to go.
So I said I will 'cause I need people to see me, like as a social person. She totally misled
everything I said and in the end we started discussing about it; she called me a douche
I didn't care but I kept talking about how I don't have friends outside of school
and that's why I need to meet new people so that's what I wanted to go to that
birthday and that when I grow up I wanna have memories that I actually enjoyed
my adolescence. I don't wanna have memories of watching movies eating ince-cream
on a couch. She took it personally. I'm sick of fighting. And she also said I've been acting strange
lately, I think it's because I don't like anyone anymore or the fact that I make them uncomformtable when I talk about my feelings, the ones related to boys and stuff. I really wanna leave this country and be able to be myself. I was told by my best friend that the girl I finished my best friend relationship with misses me, I do too but not as much as she does and I don't wana be her friend anymore she's a liar, she said 'she had got over me' like 3 months ago. Also the guy I was ridiculously in love with has been staring at me a lot lately. I do not like that, is annoying.