Intro to my life

I won't say my name, at least not the real one.
I will say other people's names. Not full names of course. The first thing you need to know is: I'm gay, so if you are not interested in reading this, then I'll suggest you to leave. I'm currently 15 years old, and created this blog to capture all of my deepest feelings that, somehow, I feel my best friends wouldn't like to hear (even though they know I'm gay)

I feel akward to start off a conversation like this:

"Hey, I think he's really hot"

An even when I don't start the conversation like that I get a "sht p" response, not in an oral mean, but with expressions, gestures, etc.

I don't even find that kind of support on threads of gay forums. By support I mean comfort of saying/ expressing what I feel. Sometimes I think like there's no solution to what I'm going through and finished a friendship that was the only person that liked to hear what I said, or at least that's what I thought.

I have no intentions to show this blog, to any type of friends, since they're the reason why I have this blog.

I feel the need to get in shape so I can get I boyfriend, not now but in college, you see I'm colombian but I live in the Caribbean. I asssist to a CHRISTIAN school and being gay is, well, 'wrong' I believe in God, strongly, but I don't go to church. There are 4 people in this world that I've come out to, all of them girls, I don't talk to one of them anymore since we stopped being friends, and other three are my current best friends. I love them. For now there's nothing more to say, except that I think Shane Dawson is gay and that I love Pineapple Express :)